say ooh

My job getting more exciting. My workmates are friendly, my boss is funny, and my tasks is getting too much. haha.

I know sometimes i feel so bad and confused for not making any progress on my thesis, because I feel so tired when back from work (it's about 7/8 pm already when I arrive at my boarding house, even it just about 100 meters from my office), I don't know why I feel so relieve and worth just to stay late at office, face the monitor for almost 9hours, still doing my job til late afternoon. Maybe it simple, because I love to do it.

I know I'm kinda person who extreme, or over. If I love something, I just feel over excited about it. But I shouldn't let my thesis spirit disappear, or make some excuses because I often feel headache after work, or because I don't have any work desk in my boarding room so I have to thesising on bed which is I don't like it,,all I need to do now is: drink coffee, synthesize my thesis,and get up with satisfy feeling.
Btw, tomorrow I have my 1st official duty outside office with my boss, I will go to bogor (my company's plant) to have trial drink product. I wish I'm not yawning along the trip. haha. and I hope, even I feel sleepy tomorrow, I still can bubble up some fresh ideas. Amiiiin.

Oh my God, I already feel sleepy now

u'll never know til' u try

I'm so sad this morning,,I feel so embarassed with my self.
After through the 1st day at company,I'm a lil' bit shock with what I should handle at there. A mountain of task,because I do the project that already on going,so I'm not learn from how it start. And my product that should be handle is about 50 or more.
I don't mind being busy at work, I like it. But, maybe my biologic time feel confused.
I can't eat even I feel hungry.
I can't sleep even I'm sleepy:p
I can't have my intermezzo time if I feel tired of working (I usually read comics or doing some 'housemaid thingy' while I blogwalking),,but now it's just history..because my boss desk,is right behind my back about 50meters only.
I can't text SMS as I want..hahaha

And now, I feel like,is this business ruin my passion??
I say NO!!!!!!

I just need more time to adaptable. And take my time to make achievment at work, doing my thesis, and doing a little business that I admire about.
Gotta update soon. because it's 7.30am already, I have to work at 8.00

Wish me good luck peeps :D

lift UP my spirit please

Hoaemm.. I'm so sleepy... but unfinish my thesis yet
Btw, I just order a lovely red wedges from UP shoes. I'm drooling over it for almost a week til' I success make an order just now.
I have many wedges I should admit, but I don't have any red one yet, since red become my new favorite colour recently. Haha. I dunno why I easily exchange my favorite colour. I just love to collect series of stuff that have the same colour. And since my motorcycle and car are red, so I think I have to collect more red in the rest of my life. Last week I bought my 1st red t-shirt. I think people will attract more attention in red (a month ago I thought it was purple:p)
Btw, I will wear it to my new office (lucky me, wedges are permitted to become daily wear at there:p).
Ah whatever, all I want is becoming master degree very soon.

let it be

it thursday already.
i'm not submit any bundle of thesis to my supervisors yet.
i'm not packing all the stuff in my boarding room yet.
and I'm still processing the data, typing carefully (i think I'm gonna EAT this research methodology guide book), listening to some interview records, reading more and more literatures to make it perfect, and never ending other lists.

some part of my self say I should depress! How come, u are not finish anything well whereas u have to move from this town on saturday morning, and start new BIG thing at monday morning??

I even can't prepare anything to face the business development thingy.

But then, my winamp randomly play a song from hundred of other songs there.

When I find myself in times of trouble,
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be
For though they may be parted, there is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

And when the night is cloudy there is still a light that shines on me
Shine until tomorrow, let it be
I wake up to the sound of music, Mother Mary comforts me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be, let it be, yeah, let it be
There will be an answer, let it be
(the beatles, let it be)

So relieve what already past,,relieve what already wasted.
Prepare more for another day called tomorrow.
So friday, I won't let u to let me down.

why did i still let it consuming my time?

strawberry milk is my mood booster

slurupp! ahhh what a milk! :p
Since I'm a baby, I always love milk. Almost every kind of milk,whatever flavour, i like it. (I'm a healthy baby:p).
Btw, I just received a call from Natasha Beauty Center's pharmacist (Mrs. Atiek), a call for job interview. But too bad, I already sign contract for pharmaceutical industry. I applied there 1,5 months ago approximately,but it was quite long to progress it, otherwise I want that job (beside I use Natasha as my beauty care---I imagine can get discount as a subsidy for employee:p, and the job is not as hectic as work in Industry (since my thesis still on progress).

But then here I'm, one of employee at pharmaceutical company as a Business Development Executive, take a risk to become double function as a thesis writer and a newbie in industry. Because, we will never know where and when the ball (called a chance) would like to come to us. Being risk taker is one of the condition we should try to keep making progress in life.
So whatever the condition that probably can be hard,just face it. Then we will have more capabilities to handle things that we think we can't before. Keep flowering buddies!:D

ps: We will never walk alone. Allah will help the one who ask :).

optimistic!

Yeah it's wednesday already,,and I'm not finish my thesis yet. When will I submit it to my supervisors than I can see the correction? Aaaaa I'm getting really crazy if I remember that. Am I so lame? Or my target just too much?

Whatever,i do make progress..I'm trying to keep my feet running at the ground and keep making progress.

Yes u can!!
If I'm not optimist, what else can keep my spirit alive?
I'll prove to my self.....!Allah is helping me as always. as always. I trust it,so I have to be optimist.
Gotta back to work! :D

counting down

Aaaaaa...it's hard to leave this lovely town. I've been her for 5,5 years. Finished my bachelor degree at pharmacy major, finished my apothecary program, and almost finish my master degree at pharmaceutical management. I really love this city, I really love my campus, my faculty, canteen,,I love to enjoy the GSP jogging track at late afternoon, I almost love every kind of food at here, almost all of every place that i love to visit were very easy to reach,, yeahhh since there's no traffic jam at Jogja.

I remember at the very first time I arrived at jogja to study at UGM. I came here by small car with my dad and my uncle(and maybe now i need one BIG truck to bring all my stuff back home:p),and they only drop me by,,so I have to prepare all of the student orientation stuff by my self, include decor my boarding house room. I have one senior high school-mate that enter the same campus with me and stay at same boarding house, and her parents stayed til she done her orientation thingy (jealous:p).

But then,my mom come to jogja to help me (washing and ironing my clothes include :D,i love u mom)
And because i don't have any vehicle til 1st year of my study,so I have to walk down the street from my campus til my boarding house (it's about 1,5 km) even when I feel so exhausted after spent all day long at laboratorium since the bus is only available til 5pm.
At the 2nd year,finally i've got my motorcycle..it made me easier to through the life.hahaha
And at 3rd year of my master degree I've got a car,,actually it because I think it easier for newbie to drive a car at jogja than bekasi (my hometown) since the traffic at bekasi is like hell. Alhamdulillah now I can drive smooth:p.

Aaaaaa i really love jogja.whatever disaster that ever happened here,,jogja will always become my favorite city.

But life goes on:)
So Jakarta, be nice to me! :D

yippie

oOlo!
I just finish interview with the major respondent for my research. She is Head of Pharmacy Divison at one of state hospital in this city. I feel so relieved after I got her interview. So actually,I ever made an appointment to interview her before,,but failed due to miss communication or bad management (because the staff who give me permission letter is new employee and she didn't know a thing about education division that usually take care of researcher) where the main problem is I'm not pay for the research fee yet. So she angry to me,because I'm illegal researcher at there,haha. I'm a bit shock when she mad but psst..I already interview other staffs at Pharmacy at that time:p. But when I interview her today,,she is so cooperative and kind.

So for those wanna interview respondent which is functionary,u should be extremely polite,follow their rules and make them impress with ur appearance, dress professional is suggested. Sometimes young researcher is usually have label of no importance, whereas the quality of qualitative research is depend on the researcher's capabillity to gain more from informant. So blend with ur informant is a must. Learn their culture, make them interested with u (eg: I bring cakes for all the pharmacy staff at 2nd interview:p), and make sure for a very accurate appointment schedule. Sometimes (and often for me) u have to wait veeeerrry a looooong time,til' they have free time (because pharmacy is focus to serve medical patient). U have to insist that ur patience will have happy ending :).
And because it hard to take their time,so u have to well prepare be sides have a good condition is a must before have an interview time.
I ever interview 3 person in a row,,I stay tune at there from morning til' evening,, and I feel so exhausted then it will probably distract my concentrate while interview. I don't have idea to respond the answer from informant, so the interview become boring, and of course poor quality.
And after get some data dunno tow to extract it.Because maybe u missed something while record the interview. And ur memory will help much.
So good luck! :)

what a hectic mind

I'm typically person who often have a long list of the things-to-do in mind.
I want everything go with prepare,,so i can expect the result.
I wanna handle everything,and take my part so i feel more satisfy then.
There's Indonesian Idiom sounds "sekali mendayung 2,3 pulau terlampaui" or "sambil menyelam minum air",,which is I love to be multitasking,but..I dunno if I'm that capable to be called multitasking person.

The bad point is,many tasks that already start will become unfinished business of mine. And in hectic condition or underpressure called deadline,I can lost in mind what to do 1st, 2nd,3rd,,etc.
But,eventhough I often have a condition like I mention above, my perfectionis neuron will always be active and demand for perfect result just like I imagine in the beginning.
And if i don't get what i expected, i feel so bad. I feel like "I'm not finish yet","maybe i missed something that I should try". Not satisfy.

Yeah,I often feel tired with those condition which is I made it by myself. I wish I can feel more relieve with whatever I do.

Sometimes I feel dilemma,,is it good to go with the flow,,spontaneously,easy to satisfy,or dunno have strict target in life? But if I'm being a person like that,,I wonder,how come u get something significant in life (like what u admire about) if u just do plain?

Hahaha...oke don't take it too hard. It's not good to be that strict,,that's why we need variation or colourful in our life. Don't we? :)

l.i.f.e

hello.
my life going crazy lately. i get many things that i ever asked (alhamdulillah). But,i dunno if i can handle all of it for now. I'm still master student, doing my thesis,and just sign contract for a company.
I only have less than a week to finish my research,complete my thesis,and submit it to my supervisor(s) before I start to work at different city which it must be hard for my self to focus on thesis thingy anymore.
The worst part is,,both of my supervisors won't be able to keep in touch with me by email,sms,phone or whatever called technology. So the only way is by face to face. And based on my company rules, actually there's no furlough for new employee at least i work there for 6 months.
Lord...U know what should i do,,stop writing unimportant thing,and start synthesize and typing my thesis.
all right.
in God i trust.
pardon the labile ending of this post.